When I got home from the clinic, they were already wilted — a perfect summary of effort without follow-through.
I spent a long time in a state of quiet abandonment.
Not loud sobbing. Not movie drama.
Just the repeated realization that I had become a burden people managed by avoiding.
That’s what hurts the most.
Not that you’re sick.
That people decide you’re inconvenient.
Then there was Marcus.
At first, I assumed he was confused.
Wrong patient. Wrong person. Waiting for someone else.
I finally asked him, “Why are you here?”
He didn’t hesitate.
“To keep you company.”
I told him, “I don’t even know you.”
He nodded once and said, “Not yet.”
That “not yet” should have sounded creepy.
Instead, it sounded like a plan.
Week after week, he was there.
Same time. Same chair. Same calm.
I learned his coffee order without asking.
I learned he read historical fiction because it gave his brain somewhere to go that wasn’t grief.
I learned the names of his two grown children.
I learned he volunteered at multiple charities because staying busy was his method for not falling apart.
And somehow—without a speech, without a grand gesture—Marcus became the person I could count on.
Then he started doing things that went beyond “company.”
Things that made me realize he wasn’t just passing time.
He was investing in my survival.
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